I just had a quick meeting with a guy who’s worth over 10 million. Maybe over 50 million. It’s kind of funny to me, to be sitting there knowing that I can’t even take care of the basic responsibilities I have, meanwhile what would be a small drop in this guys large bucket of money would be enough to take care of my family for the next year. I don’t have customers, and that seems to be the biggest thing people are saying. Where are the customers? I can’t explain why I don’t have customers, but the fact remains I don’t.

i’m sitting here suffering over my lack, my inability, the pain of my continued situation. but all of this worry all of this frustration, it must be coming from a place of scarcity. It must be coming from a place of uncertainty. Whatever it is that’s keeping me from the success I feel I deserve, it’s not readily apparent to me. Or at least if it is, I missing something in the way that I’m understanding what it is that I know.

it’s not the small number of hours of work that I could be doing turn my money that’s my concern. For me it’s about the big deal. It’s a question of how I’m I going to get to 10,000 a month, or 20,000 a month from here?

but I guess, why sit here and think about it, I really have to remember that I journey of 1000 miles begins with one step.

What I’m taking on is a big thing, and I need to do it slowly, methodically, and I need to enjoy every step. The fact that I was even able to meet this guy, that he practically hugged me, smiled a lot, and that he really likes me is amazing.

I put him in the same category as my other mentors, it’s amazing that these people like me. I mean I guess it’s not really amazing, cause I’m awesome. But it’s pretty cool.

I know it all starts with gratitude, being grateful for what I have. I do spend a lot of my time looking at those people who I think are more successful than me, and I’m jealous. I don’t know how to get rid of jealousy. Men isn’t jealousy just wanting? Isn’t it just an extension of the wanting that’s not satisfied? with on additional focus of pointing out another person and wanting what they have instead of just wanting something for myself?

at the end of the day sure, maybe they have a richer life than me. Maybe they stress about less things than I do, but it doesn’t mean my life’s not great.