Monthly Archives: October 2014

Guest blogging

okay this is a very special blog entry because I’m having a guest suffer today. We have today my wife oriole who is suffering and I’m going to use this opportunity to blog about her suffering she really wants her. To come. And it hasn’t come. It’s still a few days early but she feel horrible right now and if certain that what she needs to do is start bleeding.

she’s tired and has to keep working the poor soul she doesn’t get the break that she needs. All she can do is think about how much ginger she’s about to put on her food. And how she shouldn’t be eating anything really. But she has to. And she just wants her period.

oh yeah, and the houses amass, things need to get put away, everybody needs her, and all she wants to do is be left alone.
this is never ending it’s not like after today she’ll get to rest, because tomorrow she has to do it all over again. And all she wants. Is a period. To take a break. And she wants chocolate and coffee but she can’t have them because they’ll make her feel bad. Which doesn’t make sense, since she already feels bad, that she should avoid the things that would make her feel good, because they would make her feel bad. But since she has to work tomorrow she can’t even take the chance of doing something that will make her feel good because it might make her feel bad stat. What she really wants is sprouted hazelnut raw chocolate butter.

and the reality is there’s nothing wrong here. And she knows that this is just temporary suffering. Because really she has a house and food and a wonderful family, she has all the things that a person needs to be happy. But that doesn’t matter because suffering is greater than any of that.
especially when you’re waiting for your period.
and if it hasn’t already been beat to death she also wants chocolate. Anything else you’re suffering about? that’s it. except for the continual pain in the various forms of her body in various places, this pain is never ending, refuses to cease, and generally is just a big pain in the everything.

The traffic and Siri can both go to hell

I leave my house at 2:30 to go up to Everett and it is nothing but wall-to-wall fucking traffic. This is such total bullshit, there must be an accident up ahead. I’ll be grateful when I find out, but meanwhile I’m trying to use Siri to read an attachment to an email. It should be a simple thing, but no.

It’s not simple cause it’s fucking Siri, and it’s moronic how poor it does what it’s supposed to do.

I guess really I don’t have anything to complain about, because life is pretty damn good right now. But for some reason I’m still really irritated right this minute. I think what’s bothering me is having to leave my employee at the house, not knowing what she’s doing, while I leave knowing she’s probably going to screw things up while I’m gone.

i’m even concerned that she’s going to steal from me, and maybe she will. Well thankfully in the time and text me to write this I passed the accident and now I’m flying down the freeway again. Yay!

and the suffering begins again

it’s been several weeks since I recorded anything in here, and I can’t really say specifically why that is, maybe I’ve been busy, but maybe I just haven’t really been suffering all that much. But as I watch the money start to dwindle from the settlement, seeing that it’s literally almost gone, I start panicking.

oh my God, I’m thinking oh no, the world is going to come to an end, I’m going to be broke.

I worked myself up into a frenzy, forgetting to be present to hell amazing my life is right now. I literally am friends with michael gerber, and business partners with michael gerber. Oh my fucking God how amazing is that?

and despite that, or that notwithstanding, I’m suffering right now. I’m suffering about the overwhelmed, about all the things I have to do. Nobody else is going to do them for me. I can’t very well delegate most of the work that I have. But I should be able to.

I need somebody who really understand how to do bookkeeping. If I don’t write that test so that I can make sure that the people that The people I’m interviewing know how to do bookkeeping, then I’ll never get somebody good. But if I can get some good people, and I know that means people beyond the basic skill level of a McDonald’s, then I can have something.

I shouldn’t have any problem finding somebody who knows how to do the books, and will work for $20-$25 an hour.

but the interesting thing is, I find myself wanting to find that person, wanting to find that solution, because I don’t understand bookkeeping well enough to do it myself. Because the reality is I currently don’t have enough work to hire someone, and still make enough money to pay all my bills.

until my new tequila client comes on board, and my coffee client comes on board, and I get a couple of more clients, I can handle all the work. It’s the additional Gerber infusion, integrity work that’s taking up my time. If it weren’t for that and I just focused on the books, I have plenty of time.