The conversation in my head sounds kind of like I want you to want what I want. And then I hear the other side say but what about when I want. Then I think well OK I’ll just give you what you want. Then I think how long can I do that before I start to resent that were always doing what you want?

so then I realize, if I didn’t make a commitment to you then I’m not that interested and devoting my life to you by just trying to give you everything you want and using that as a way to crash my ego like I do with aureole now

New York pizza is trying to fuck me on my pay. He owes me over $6000 and I bet he went with the new company just so he didn’t have to pay my invoice. He’s going to fuck them too.

some fucker smashed my window and stole a box of secure documents for my car. Of all fucking things to take, so irritating!

oh well, at least that’s all it was. Could’ve been my laptop.

the struggles of staff.  agghhkkkkk

normally this is where I would write about my suffering, but I’m not having any today or yesterday. Things are good, I have enough money to pay the mortgage only the sixth.  gonna do over 20k this month

Orioles knee is messed up. It recently started flaring up, and now it’s been pretty steady. It feels to me like it’s doing the same thing her elbows have done and then it won’t be long before she can’t walk. I’m saying this now because I want to record it so I can go back and look. at how long it’s been