The conversation in my head sounds kind of like I want you to want what I want. And then I hear the other side say but what about when I want. Then I think well OK I’ll just give you what you want. Then I think how long can I do that before I start to resent that were always doing what you want?

so then I realize, if I didn’t make a commitment to you then I’m not that interested and devoting my life to you by just trying to give you everything you want and using that as a way to crash my ego like I do with aureole now