things are finally starting to look up. Money is starting to blow, my wife is taking her arthritis medication, everything starting to be beautiful outside because it’s spring. And yet, I’m test. What am I pissed about? My left wrist hurts, I don’t even know what I did it just started hurting.
but it definitely got in the way when I was trying to play golf yesterday. And it hurts now. This chronic pain in my joint is not good. It went from my wrist to my elbow, then to my back, now it’s in my wrist again.

So that’s one thing I’m pissed about. And then I’m pissed about his new headphones. I thought that I was going love them, they got all kinds of great reviews, and yet I’m just not happy with them. The sound quality isn’t as good as I want, they’re bigger than I want, they don’t sit on my head like I want them to, they just are not as great as I thought they’d be. Isn’t that the way with things we want?

We get this idea in our head that we want something, and we have made up how great this thing is going to be, and we get the thing, and it’s not nearly as good as they thought it would be. Of course that doesn’t always happen, but it does sometimes.

The same thing happened with this job that I did. I did the work for this guy, and I build him, and he was going to pay me, and instead I saw this laptop on his desk and I said I’ll take that instead. As it turns out it’s not as good of a laptop that I would’ve thought, it’s more trouble to get it all set up like my other one is set up.

and
In the middle of recording this post, after I’ve already dictated what I want to say, my phone is thinking about it trying to transcribe it, I just sit there and spend forever. So then I’m pissed about having to repeat what I just said overall it’s just a pissy day. And there are frustrations about things not being what I want them to be.

so now that I have used all that, hey I can see the insanity of it, I can be strong need for meditation, the only thing that is due to take a few breath, calm myself.

they say in the secret to get presence of gratitude. If a gratitude starts the wheels turning. I’m sure if I were to just sit here and you negativity for any longer, it would result in me having bad feelings. It’s not what I want. Sundesert thinking about things I’m grateful for. And about how awesome my life is.