I guess it’s not that uncommon for me to get my hopes up, then discover that I had my hopes up, and then get letdown.

in this particular case it was several thousand dollars I thought I was going to get from a new client who turned out not to have the money to pay me. But this kind of thing happens a lot, I’m excited before a new client comes on, I’m excited when I close the deal, and fairly quickly I start being disinterested and looking for the next deal