after returning from seven days of silent meditation, my car is full of water, I just fired Jaimmie, exp just fired  me, which is actually a blessing. But I still feel like there’s something wrong. What’s mostly wrong I’m just so pissed from being back in being hit with all of this bullshit to deal with. Now I see that my company can’t run without me which of course I already knew that it could. And then I got mad about it because I was resisting it