well that certainly isn’t possible. But what has been going on is that I don’t really have time to post on here. Wow! that’s complete bullshit.

The reality is I’m working my ass off right now trying to get ready for the software launch. I’m underfunded, too much to do, and it’s really hard to focus on bookkeeping and building the software while it’s the holidays. Shopping and partying and dinners, it’s so time-consuming. Plus I’ve been trying to go to bed at the same time as oriole lately which is totally messing me up.

What I should be doing is focusing on bookkeeping except that I can’t finish my software phone still working on bookkeeping. So I know I’m not gonna make as much doing bookkeeping right now as I should, but I also know if I don’t get this offer don’t never gonna make any money with that thing.

have a less stress, I’m being asked my family, I have money concerns, I’m worried about this mole on my back that could be a tumor, I have to quit my tai chi because of my teacher not being up to the level that I want him to be, we’re trying to get Rafa back in Brightwater and they said no, so now were kind of fighting with them about it, but really I kind I don’t want to go cause it cost a lot of money and I don’t know it right now. So the whole thing is just stressing me out.

and this is what I’m suffering over. But really I’m so focused on what I’m doing but I’m just not paying much attention to what I’m suffering about. as is evidenced by the fact that I haven’t posted in here in a month. And now that’s really all I have to say about it because right this moment I’m not suffering other than that I’m taking time to do this when I really should be building my software.