some relief, finally, since we have some money now I can drive in the express lane’s and pay for them no matter how much it cost. And right at this moment there’s a ton of traffic on the right-hand side because of an accident, and I get to drive in the left-hand lane’s and fly right through.some signs of relief
I guess it’s not that uncommon for me to get my hopes up, then discover that I had my hopes up, and then get letdown.
in this particular case it was several thousand dollars I thought I was going to get from a new client who turned out not to have the money to pay me. But this kind of thing happens a lot, I’m excited before a new client comes on, I’m excited when I close the deal, and fairly quickly I start being disinterested and looking for the next deal
so many stacks of papers on his desk
he said im not optomized re website
he didnt even review her file beforehand
40 minutes late
sour receptionist
stacks of mail and shit to get to one day
im very skeptical at this time
i should have written her history for him
when were you completely well and what’s happened since?
when she introduced me, he didn’t even say hello.
his bday is nov 1st
look into his heart, how does it glow?
hlab27
bcm95 curcurmen
reriva
boswellian is good because of akba
5000/day d3
get a 23me test from puregnomics get snips results
sirex panel-to see if she has intibodies to her own intestines.
today’s the first day I’m not smoking, I’ve decided to take off until July 1. The day didn’t start out perfectly, but I went over to play in a poker tournament and I said to myself that I was going to win, and I did. For $40 entry I won over $283
rarely do I have my windows down while I’m driving, but I did today. I pulled up next to these two city workers, and I hear the supervisor speaking in an unkind way to her underling. Cut that in She says
Over here he asks turning around with his heads trimmer
Behind you Jesse, she says and what unspoken is you dumbass, from looking at her face and seeing the way that she’s looking at him. I’m immediately reminded of how I do that to people. But instead of calling myself a dumbass and make myself feel bad, this time I say no.
I do not allow myself to be spoken to like that even by me.
well after several days of me being an ass, my wife finally came to talk to me and asked me what was wrong. I explained all of my troubles, about how hard it is to see her when she’s in pain, and how I’m so glad she’s doing better, but that I have PTSD,.
I talk to h well after several days of me being an ass, my wife finally came to talk to me and asked me what was wrong. I explained all of my troubles, about how hard it is to see her when she’s in pain, and how I’m so glad she’s doing better, but that I have PTSD,.
I talk to her about my financial stress and my inability to do anything. about it, and I cried, and my heart got broken open. That’s what happens to make things start feeling better again. Now from causation, what caused me to close my heart?
but then she told me that she’s going to be getting like an $11,000 check in a couple of days that I had completely missed even though I kind a new about it. So all the sudden my birthday is about to be here in a couple of days, my hearts broken open, my wife reports to me that there’s gonna be a bunch of money, and I’m feeling better again.
another day of being shitty to my family just angry over and over. It could be because I’ve been eating meat, the only thing I can think of.
I could say it’s cause I’m broke or I could say it’s because of a lot of things, not meditating, smoking too much, who the fuck knows, but what I do know is that I’m Benedict my family
i’m so mad right now these days I mean. Like everything is fucked spattered with moments of not fuckedness.
i’m really pissed that shitty drivers, the traffic in this city is driving fucking crazy, but mostly I’m broke again fuck!
no new deals are happening right now, it’s all my fault. I’m just not managing my sales, but I’m quite frustrated right this minute. I don’t even really feel like I have the money to buy the CBD oil that I want to be smoking,
I should take that back that I want to be smoking it, it’s a fucking waste of money. It’s not even making me happy is it? I’m just suffering like shit over here even though I’m staring at beautiful Mount Rainier sigh
OK, so I smoked, and I walked around, and I read some lao tzu, and besides being really thirsty, I guess I’m doing OK right this second. Really that’s all there is, right this second right?
I guess it’s pretty obvious to me what’s going on, my suffering blog is been relatively silent until I gave up weed yesterday and all the sudden here I am.
This is th
I guess it’s pretty obvious to me what’s going on, my suffering blog is been relatively silent until I gave up weed yesterday and all the sudden here I am.
This is the near Tatian that I feel without their drivers, with other people and their behaviors, it’s mostly get off my happiness, fucker.
there is and anything I can put my finger on as the solution to this problem, this is just what it’s like to deal with sobriety. Fucking sucks.
it’s time for me to take a break from weed. I thought maybe I could do moderation, but that didn’t work out so well for me when I tried it so I think just a clean break for a little while is what I’m looking for.
It’s pretty
it’s time for me to take a break from weed. I thought maybe I could do moderation, but that didn’t work out so well for me when I tried it so I think just a clean break for a little while is what I’m looking for.
It’s pretty tough on my wife because she thinks I’m in a be really difficult to be around, but hopefully that’s not the case. I’m really committed to getting through this without making peoples life difficult, but if necessary I’ll just start smoking again.