i told him i wouldn’t put in any money towards a new tv, so he asks her. she says of course. then he tells me about the the tv they were shopping for on ebay.  she should have told me.  fuck, now i’m pissed, that hurts his feelings.  she’s mad at me for getting mad.  i can’t fucking win.

i can see them doing what they can to stay away from me.  that bothers me too. sick, feel like shit, feeling afraid of not enough money, house is a mess, fuck fuck fuck.  how is this my life?